Plain old tired (from lack of sleep)

(1:04 AM) Yikes, I need some sleep. Today I had a 16 oz glass of sweet tea for breakfast, then 8 oz. coconut water with 1 t green powder, then 20 garlic almonds around 1, then 5 crackers w/ garlic curry seed dip around 3, then 1 really large salad around 5:30 followed by the pumpkin seed/almond butter dessert. Everything was delicious, though I think the salad I fixed may have been too big. Perhaps I didn't need that much...I had a BM around 6, it was a good amount, but fairly soft, very long and narrow. Around midnight I had an 8 oz chocolate coffee drink to top me off. I went to bed around 1 last night and woke up shortly after five. I was tired this morning and it took me a while to get out of bed. Also, each time I've stopped for a moment, I feel this tiredness. I need to go to bed, but I still have a few things left to do in the kitchen. Today I had a lot of thoughts and feelings (including strong feelings of loneliness and sadness), but I will update them tomorrow.

This is bathing suit weather, baby!

(11:26 PM) Went to bed around 2, but woke up refreshed around 8. Got up at 8. Had a solid, narrow BM of medium amount. I ate three oranges throughout the morning and had my usual salad around 3. I had a pumpkin seed/cacao/honey/almond butter dessert. Around 6:30 I had 7 triple seed crackers with Nur's leeks and 2 servings of the above mentioned desserts. I also had at least 24 oz of sweet tea, some w/ caffeine, some w/o. I had a 2nd BM in the early evening. Nothing notable. My tummy just started to hurt a bit. I haven't had any food or drink for a few hours, but nonetheless, its feeling weird.

I had a super day. I took pics of myself outside eating salad. I also put some baby herbs in the ground. The sky was gorgeous all day long.

Nightmares

(11:01 PM) Well, last night was terrible. I had a series of very scary nightmares, one of which I got shot in the stomach in and was seeking help. I woke up totally out of it, and my stomach felt like it had rocks in it still. So I'm not surprised I was feeling intense pain there in the dream. I woke up pretty freaked out. I got up around nine am and my eyes were totally bloodshot and very sore from napping w/ my contacts in. I still felt full of rocks in the morning. YUCK! I ate a couple of oranges sometime after noon. I had a glass of coconut water with green powder in the afternoon and around 4 I think I had my usual wonderful salad. I was a little reluctant to eat something because of my funny tummy, but I did and was fine. About an hour later I had 16 oz of chocolate almond milk. Then at night, maybe 8:30, I had another orange, 5 triple seed crackers w/ cilantro dip, and a mixture of 1 Tablespoon of almond butter/1 t honey/1 t cacao nibs. Then I also had about 12 oz of sweet caffeinated tea. I'm feeling good right now, though. I had a BM around 4 or 5. Medium size. Pretty solid. But then I had another BM a few hours later: medium amount, but not so solid. Hopefully it was an exorcising BM, removing whatever demon substances that caused me to feel so terrible. I hope tomorrow is much, much better...

Here are pictures of a beautiful yummy salad. Just looking at them makes me feel better:)